Chemo: Day One

Sean started chemotherapy treatment yesterday morning. We went to the medical oncologist's office together while my grandma and Aunt Marcie watched Taylor at our house. The chemo lab is basically a large room full of leather recliners and tvs. Sean was happy that they had internet access and he was on his computer pretty much the whole time we were there. All the nurses were really nice (and all of them were pregnant.. odd....) and one of the RNs came over and talked to us for a while about what to expect these first couple of days. She said that we'd both be really surprised how fast fatigue would kick in, and she was absolutely right. About 2 hours into treatment Sean started getting tired, and by the time we got him he was wiped OUT. He watched about 30 minutes of a movie before he couldn't keep his eyes open anymore and went in our room to take a nap. He woke up 2 hours later feeling even more drained, weak, and sick. Luckily the anti-nausea medications the doctor prescribed are working really well and Sean hasn't gotten sick at all (yet). My Relief Society president brought us dinner right after Sean woke up - salad, enchiladas, and sugar cookies. I'm so thankful for that meal because the last thing I wanted to think about last night was making dinner. Last night was pretty rough on Sean emotionally. The reality of what is happening finally kicked in and he broke down. He's frustrated that he is already so weak and needs to much help; and he's upset and he can't help me with Taylor very much anymore. He doesn't want to be sick (who would?) and knowing that there's months and months of this ahead is just killing him. I completely understand how he feels, and it's hard not being able to help him or take this pain away. I love him so much and I hate watching him go through this. I know we'll both get past it though, and we both look forward to being able to put all this mess behind us and move on with our lives.

Thank you to everyone who has helped us with babysitters, meals, finances, and shoulders to cry on. We appreciate all the sacrifices that have been made on our behalf and we love you all.